Thursday, September 4, 2008

a year ago tonight

Anna Kate will be one tomorrow. Seriously, it is hard to even fathom.

A year ago right now, I was in the worst pain I've ever felt. I was scared because I was being induced five weeks early due to pregnancy induced hypertension. I was laying in a hospital bed and the contractions were hitting me hard. I had such a long sleepless night of labor ahead of me. I remember laying there, watching my blood pressure rise and then suddenly bottom out. I remember panicking every time the monitor lost track of my baby's heart beat. I remember begging Chris to help me, even though I knew there was nothing he could do. It was the most mentally and physically draining night of my life.

The night of pure torture (12 hours and 21 minutes to be exact) turned into a beautiful morning.

At 7:21 a.m. I was handed the most beautiful gift. I held my daughter n my arms for the first time. Through tears, Chris and I thanked God for her safe and healthy arrival after nine months of waiting. From that moment she has been a blessing and joy in my life. She fills my days with smiles, giggles, and yes... challenges. I love her with a love I've never know before. I thank God every single day for the blessing she's been in my life. I never want to forget this last year.

Tonight, after a day of stressful preparations for company and her party, I finally slowed down enough for it to hit me- my little girl is growing up. As I gave her a bath, got her ready for bed, and read her a story, my emotions almost got the best of me. I was not in a hurry to put her to bed tonight. She played and snuggled with me and Chris for about 15 mins. before I put her to bed. It was one of those times that I wished I could freeze. Tomorrow I want to soak in every second with her. I want to enjoy simply "being" with her. Precious moments never to forget...

On our way to the hospital!
Holding my sweet girl for the first time.

Stay tuned for all the fun birthday posts!


Ashley said...

I can not believe it has been a year already! I am in tears right now thinking about it! She is so precocious and I can not wait to see what the future holds for her and all the little one's we have now! We love you Miss Anna Kate!!

Brittany said...

Time just flies. I still can't believe we missed the birth, but I am glad everything turned out well in the end.

During the pain of labor I thought it was unbearable, but now (time heals-makes you forget-all pain) I am like "what pain?". I could do that again :)